Sunday, September 27, 2009


Life's a major rollercoaster right now. I feel like I'm experiencing reverse gravity while trying to jump on a trampoline, but...
via stairway to heaven on flickr.

"If it's meant to be it will be".

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

a little bit of this...

Tell me why.
I still think of you
and wonder when this will all end
and I’ll find the friend I always knew,
was in you.

i will follow you into the dark.

Who would have thought technology would be so useful? I got a great spontaneous email from my favorite dude. Next week I'll be up until 2:30 AM so we can have a little e-mail pow wow. That's not such a convenient hour, but eh I can't change an 8 hr time difference just yet.

"I Will Follow You Into the Dark" by Death Cab for Cutie
Stuck in my head all day long & I kinda like it there.


Monday, September 21, 2009


via weheartit

This picture pretty much explains how i feel right now. im extremely tired of waiting for you. so can you please call me, message me or something. i feel like giving up. blah. i dont know what else to say. so bye.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

old fashion.

So I've heard from my favorite dude like twice in a week and I couldn't be happier.
He comes home in 33 days and I'm very excited.
But I also couldn't be more disappointed.
Not disappointed that he's coming home, but that I most likely will not be able to see fly down to UT to see him like a week after he gets there, as was the plan.
I know that miracles do happen, so hopefully something does.
Maybe a job? A pot o'gold? or something of the like will appear in my life.
Crossing my fingers & hoping against hope.

via Rainier on flickr.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

loose ends.

Dude. So I'm pretty sure I can't compete with Lanea's bomb photography post. So while I come up with something that can even begin to compare with that awesomeness, I'll write this.

You know what sucks? Having loose ends with anyone, in any sort of relationship sucks.
I think one of the reasons why I'm so blunt and straight forward is because I hate loose ends and having things not tied off and squared away.
If I don't like you, I don't like you. End of story.
I like to make clean breaks from people that I no longer associate with.
It gives me closure.
It's hard because I feel like if I just cut a person out, then that leads to loose ends and those drive me crazy!
So I just cut off contact and see what happens.
I'm trying to tie up all my loose ends but it's difficult.
I'm not trying to start a collection of broken string.


Friday, September 11, 2009


So today i decided to take some pictures that i've been wanting to take for awhile but just never did so yeah here they are.
Photos of me taken by me Lanea.

Love's Philosophy
by Percy Bysshe Shelley
The fountains mingle with the river
And the rivers with the ocean,
The winds of Heaven mix forever
With a sweet emotion;
Nothing in the world is single;
All things by a law divine
In one spirit meet and mingle.
Why not I with thine? -

See the mountains kiss high Heaven
And the waves clasp one another;
No sister-flower would be forgiven
If it disdained its brother;
And the sunlight clasps the earth
And the moonbeams kiss the sea:
What is all this sweet work worth
If thou kiss not me?

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

monday, tuesday, happy days.

Lately I've been feeling so happy and I don't know why. It's not like anything majorly joyous occured in my life recently. I guess I'm just happy for people in my life that are finally getting the good things that they deserve. I'm blessed. I'm grateful that things are falling together for people that are around me, because I know my time will come. As for now, I'm just plain happy and nothing can bring me down.

Friday, September 4, 2009

beautifully flawed.

Today as I lounged around in my sweats, huge No Stank You banana shirt and glasses I realized that I am full of flaws, but that each one is on purpose and the summation of these weird/ beautiful/ unique "flaws" make up me and I'm cool with that.


Wednesday, September 2, 2009


Today was a pretty good day, got a cute message from a cute boy and had dinner at Toreros with Shayna, it was delicious.
I feel like I'm on this road, the road to happiness.
That could possibly lead to this. who knows but i hope something good happens soon.
(via weheartit)

Cuz I'd wait all night if I had to.

we heart it.
It's frustrating to not know what to think anymore. To not know who to spend my time on and who to cut off. I need a sign, some bolt of lightning, to show me who and how to be. I wish I had a crystal ball so I could see into the future and see who is going to be worth it and who is not. Until then, I'll keep carrying on.